Confessions Of a Gamer Girl in Garena Blackshot

I was first introduced to Garena Blackshot  when I was14 by a friend who wanted someone to play with him . Garena Blackshot is a shooting game that is close to an exact copy of Sudden Attack , Counterstrike and so on . So , I created an account and I had fun .After a period of time , I eventually stopped playing it at all to focus on something that is more important .

After a few years , I graduated from high school/secondary school and I have a long holiday. I had plans for my long holiday but this gaming thing was definitely not in my plan. It was quite a distraction but who cares , YOLO ,I did not regret it , at least for now =)  I need more fun before college starts. I started to play this game again but with a new account because I forgot what was my old account ID and password.

1) I Was A Game Addict 

• I played for 3 months since January , almost everyday for at least one hour or up to 4-6 hours . If I were in a mood to do nothing productive on that day , my day can be just game , eat and sleep . That definitely exceeded 6 hours of gaming . 

• Stopped since April because I realised I had been derping for months , and I should commit myself into something more meaningful , something that will gives me permanent pleasure and happiness . I had to do something with my life instead of feeling happy temporarily in a game which is not useful or beneficial to me in a long run .

2) Why I loved the game 

•  I liked the suspense , and how it made my heart flutter when people stabbed you in the back (literally) . It was even more palpitating when someone jumped down from the top to stab you !                                  
• The pleasure and satisfaction you got when you played it well is the BOMB ! HAHA The game was thrilling and I loved it                                                                                                                                                                          

  

  
  The amounts of head shots in a row at the bottom improved my mood =) . My best record of all time was either 9 OR more (I forgot) head shots in a row ,without respawn . BOMB !

                                                                                                                                    

  

                               7 kills in a row (without respawn), that was my best record of all time .BOMB !

• That sudden bafflement that struck you when you got killed not knowing who did it was one of the wow factor ! 

3) Screenshot It When I have a Fancy Weapon

• Be it a knife, sniper, SMG, shotgun , rifle or a grenade , I would press the print screen button .                                                                                                                                                             
  

• A paraphernalia of fancy weapons with different colours,name and shape.

4) Cyber bullying

• The game (in a game room) was divided into blue team and red team . There was once , I randomly entered a game room and I was told to leave the team and join the other team because of my rank . My rank was private , if I'm not wrong . Private is a rank for beginners and newbies of the game .       

• Gamers cheating and hacking in the game was quite common. Gamers online could be mean when they are scolding them .  Coo called Ruby orphan because he was cheating/hacking the game . There were actually meaner gamers scolding people with all sorts vulgarities ! 

         
                                                                                  

• I've been booted from a game room before , not sure why , maybe because I'm noob . I had seen other gamers boot people because they are weak/noob too.

5) Real Name as Game ID

• Initially , I used my real name because it's easy to remember , so that I wouldn't have problems logging into my account to play the game . I tried to change my game ID but to no avail . Anybody out there knows how to change the game ID ? please let me know in the comment section below !  

6) Flirts And Catcalls

• People could just randomly send a whisper message to me asking if I'm a girl . Majority of gamers are guys , but there are a minority of girls too . I'm curious if the other people who used girl names get this kind of whisper message too ? Let me know in the comments below =D

HAHA just kidding , don't slap me due to my narcissism .

    

• Some gamers took flirting to a whole new level . He was not my friend , I didn't know him . He didn't even know anything about me .He only know my name , oh my name is beautiful , punch me  , but stop ,  I was just joking. Although I told him I'm a guy , he just keep teasing me .

• I don't like unwanted attention , that's why I want to change my game ID as I previously mentioned .

7) Never Accepted Random Friend Requests

• I had never accepted random friend requests in the game . I only accept friend requests sent by gamers that I have interacted in the game . 'Friends' in game just remained in game . Untill now , I only have 5 friends out of the 5000 friends limit .

8) People in Game 

• The determined people

I rejected a random friend request and that gamer kept sending me another one , one after another after every rejections . LOL what !? And he sent more than 3 game request until I got annoyed a little bit , hahaha .

• The kid

Saw a gamer girl using her real name , and I thought we could be friends . Oh wait , she's just 12 years old . OMG, Hey I just wanted to have peers (girls) who have common interest .

• The nice people

Sometimes , people would just say 'good luck' before a game started  .

• The vulgar people

And the vulgar people would be like ' stfu' after people saying good luck . (errrr.... it was actually me who said good luck to random people , ahaha)

And vulgar people like those that I mentioned previously ( cyber bullying ) refer to #4 .

9) Got a S rank in Blackshot 

• S rank is higher than getting an A 

• Stop discriminating girls , Girls can be good at video games too

10)  MVP (Most Valuable Player) in Blackshot 

------------------------------------------------------------- From this gaming experience , I truly had a lot of fun . Besides , I also learnt that guys could just throw out promising pick up lines like how they throw rubbish . So yeah girls , don't be deceived by them .

'Practice makes perfect ' , and I have proven it right . I was once the gamer who got booted out of a game room because I was too weak . Now , I managed to cling the 'S' rank and finished as a MVP a.k.a most valuable player . In fact , I was not that good , I'm only good using smg in the game .Now , I came back to reality , so I will be on a indefinite hiatus in gaming . Moreover , college will be starting really soon , and I will not be able to blog often .

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Helplessly Unable To Move or Speak in Bed - Paralysed in sleep

Well , I'm not sure if this was my first experience but this was definitely my first lucid experience .If it was a dream , I had to admit that this was the weirdest creepiest and scariest dream EVER. 

Woke up naturally in the morning , brushed my teeth , had my breakfast . As I was using my laptop to check my emails and stuffs , I felt lazy and my bed was just beside me , my brother's bed to be exact . I was in his room . I might need some power nap , I thought , nites !

But first, let me tell ya some bedtime stories .... LOL

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Yum yum I love to sleep but I hate how I could fall asleep during the day better than at night . I wish it happens the other way instead . Lately, I don't feel sleepy at night , I closed my eyes and tried my best to 'faint' into sleep , but I just couldn't . My eyes were hurting , wanting me to sleep , but my hypothalamus in my brain located in my ass ( oh no, just kidding  ) just did not allow me to do so . I might stay in my bed for hours with full consciousness up to 4 a.m in the morning . 

                                                                                     

There was once , I was conscious until 8 a.m in the morning .I woke up and then just fall asleep VERY easily at 9a.m. in the morning . I guess my sleep hours are quite messed up , my hypothalamus is not as intelligent as I thought .It was like having a jet lag .

                                                                                     

Lately , nobody could wake me up from sleep , I will either sleep like a dead log or wake with half consciousness and fall to sleep again until 12 noon ( latest) . Normally , my mum's powerful voice or my phone alarm could wake me up .

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It Began 

OK , where was I ? back to the story , the dream began( wait , was it a dream ?) I woke up from sleep , I'm not sure if i woke up anyway , but I was conscious .I can see things around me in the room . My eyes are supposed to be open , I guess , but I can't be sure .

I could see someone standing beside my bed , I just saw its lower body , mainly the torso . I have the feeling that it's my brother . I forgot what he said to me , I guess he was trying to wake me up from sleep because it was really late . It was between 12.30 p.m. to 1.25 p.m. 

I tried to get up because my mom would be back home for lunch at 1.30 p.m. usually . I didn't want to get scolded by my mom for sleeping at this hour . Oh wait , I couldn't move . I tried to lift my head / back to get up but I was like glued to the bed with a generous amount of SUPER adhesive glue .

Maybe my head was heavy or what I dont know . So, I tried to lift my arm instead and I just could NOT get out from the 'glue' that trapped me in the bed . What was happening ? I'm trapped , I'm trapped !

Trap Music Video - Henry ft. Kyuhyun & Taemin

Oh wait , this video is random . And NO I'M NOT A FAN OF KPOP , but this song is nice =)

OK , BACK HERE , this is a no laughing matter .

I tried to call my brother as he was there to wake me up just now . He was walking away , out of the room , I tried to call him to help me . I was trapped . I opened my mouth but there was no voice . I can't talk , I can't move, I can't make any noises . I was like in a vacuum space , or am I in another dimension ? That was hella creepy . Nobody heard me including myself , I was dumb at the moment and dumbfounded of course. I tried to scream as hard as possible but to no avail .

Feeling vulnerable and helpless , I struggled hard . I tried to lift my arm , with all my force until I felt a slight pain in my arm but it was a wasted effort . My body felt really stiff and I couldn't move AT ALL  . I had zero idea what the hell was going on .

 Where was I ? in my brother's bedroom , not in hospital or elsewhere that no human on earth would ever wish to go ( if you know what I mean) . That gave me a slight relief , as I was stuck in a place that I was familiar of , but I was really anxious , not knowing what was happening . Was it the end of the world or what ? Was I paralysed ? I was terrified to the max . It was all so sudden .

Wake Me Up- Avicii

Seriously , if Avicii was right in front of me , I still couldn't get out of my bed , I had no control over my muscles , my limbs at that moment

I feel asleep or 'asleep' again and stopped struggling . I'm not sure which it was . After a while , I regained consciousness again , this time , literally conscious . I was thinking it must be really late , mom will be so pissed off if she found out that I was still sleeping . I just got up right immediately when my heart wanted me to, this time my brain did not deny what my heart wanted . I could move , I could speak .

I realised I fell asleep after my brother went to work , that means I was home alone when I was experiencing all this . Wait , who was that I saw  beside my bed ? I thought it was my brother . I asked my brother whether he went back home to grab his things later on that day and it was a negative answer from him. That means I was either hallucinating or it was someone else . He was not actually there !  Creepy to the max ! #OMG

 Anyway ,THANK GOD I could wake up again , I was really afraid that I couldn't wake up again . I thought my life would just end there , I'm so grateful that I could wake up again and do my things as usual . This make me realize that life is very fragile, you wouldn't know when you will lose it . Appreciate life , thank god for not forgetting to wake you up everyday ! 

The first thing I did after getting outta the bed was to search it in google . I realised I was not the only one that went through this . People were reasoning this from the most ridiculous way to the scientific way .

Explanations / Reasoning

1. Chinese believes it was a condition called 鬼压床 ，which means ghost holds someone to the bed , not allowing you to move.                                                                                                                        
2. Some sources from the internet explained this condition by relating it with demons and jinns ,trying to possess someone .                                                                                                                            
3. Scientifically it was a condition called sleep paralysis a phenomenon in which a person, either falling asleep or awakening, temporarily experiences an inability to move, speak, or react.It is often accompanied by terrifying hallucinations ,such as an intruder in the room ( which explained why I saw my brother in the room )to which one is unable to react due to paralysis .

I'm really not the only one !

I'm more convinced that the third reasoning is true and chose to believe that . The first and second ones are way too creepy .

Live life to the fullest , nobody knows when is the last day of their life , YOLO , you only live once , appreciate your time and make every second counts

" Let me live today like there is no tomorrow, 

regardless of how many tomorrows I may or may not see." 

--- David Gethings 

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Peace out (\/)